This is something I wrote back in June of 2009...
“DO NOT BE AFRAID”. 4 simple words. Why is it when God has a task for us he always starts things out with “Do Not Be Afraid”? He knows our hearts and he knows that when he gives us a job to do the first thing we are going to do is get nervous and doubtful. Fear keeps so many people from doing so many things. Good things and bad things.
Doing God’s work is usually not the most popular thing with those around me, even if they are believers. Someone once told me that the devil comes on angels wings. I never understood what that meant until recently. The devil does not want me to do God’s work and he has used my love for God to use it against me. When I spend all my time and focus in the church and neglect my family, that puts strain on my family relationships and causes me to push them away. That is exactly what the devil wants to happen. He does not want Christians to be happy nor to have strong relationships.
I never used to believe the devil stuff. I used to feel that people were using the devil as an excuse to not take responsibility for their actions. I think many still do, however I have witnessed firsthand how the devil has worked against me in my life and I know that it is a real threat out there.
Many people who knew me years ago, would probably not even recognize me. I was never a religious person nor was I a peaceful person. I made my choices and there were some pretty bad consequences to those choices. I now see, that the only reason I have survived was truly, by the grace of God. Also, I now see how those experiences are being used to help people out now.
One thing that I have recently heard is just because we don’t see God doing something doesn’t mean that he isn’t. He is always working in our lives. It would be very easy for me to sit back and complain about my past and the bad that was done to me. Yet, what good is that going to do? Why should I complain about things that happened because of my own choices?
God couldn’t mold me into the person he wants me to be until he totally broke me. I had to go through what I did in order for me to be prepared to handle the task at hand. I feel that he has a big task for me and I must admit, I am a bit nervous about it. I don’t feel worthy of it and I don’t feel the confidence in myself that others see. But I also know, that I can be my own worst enemy when I do not rely on God for his strength. I don’t see myself as being any better than anyone else, I just see myself that has been chosen to carry out a job that God has tasked me with.
So, am I going to react in my human form and let the fear keep me from doing what I am going to do or am I going to have faith and turn that fear over to the person that can do something about it.
What would you do?
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